Baby, I'm going to leave you

If you're going to leave me, do it now while I still have a chance to get through it alive. Because if you make me love you just one second longer, I'll be in far too deep to return. You make me feel comfortable as if I belong here, anywhere with you. So much so in fact that it is now the time I spend outside of your presence that has become uncomfortable and strange.

So, if you're going to leave me, do it now while I still remember how to be alone; the memory of it is quickly fading. Because eventually it'll come. A time when you start to love me less and less until all the love is gone. You'll get bored with me, tired of me, annoyed with me, exhausted by me. Eventually it'll become too much and you'll push me away or you'll give me a reason to run.

Please, if you're going to leave me, do it now while I still might be able to love again after. Because I am completely consumed with you, obsessed with you, in love with you. With every cell or molecule, with every piece of matter or fiber in my being, with everything inside of me; I love you. I didn't think I'd ever get to feel this way and now that I've tasted it, I just want more. I need more and more and just a little bit more everyday.

I'm begging you, if you're going to leave me, do it now while I still understand how to breathe on my own. Because if you make me love you just one second longer, that'll be the end of me and I'll be yours. Leave me now or love me forever and make me feel it everyday. I am putting myself in your hands, I am laying down quietly, I surrender. But if you drop me, I'll be shattered. Tiny pieces that will never be put back together again, I'll never know how to be whole again. I'm telling you now that I won't survive, I've rebuilt this structure too many times, I'm standing on my last leg, but I'll keep standing for you.

If you're going to leave me, do it now while I can still live without you. Because after just one more second, I won't be able to.